Can't see but, had sushi in.class today. Cos we had to present on some salmon event so our classmates made sushi. Had no idea what to make for mine. And this was super yumz. My classmates and I kept taking and taking LOL.
Supposed to go for a roadtrip. But one of my friends can't.. I could go with other people but they can't drive. :( I really don't want to be the only driver for the trip.. sigh.
Was about to study when I saw that my face broke out again. My face has been "flawless " to me for like.. 4 months already. No big zits. Only 1 or 2 small zits. Suddenly.. 1 zit popped up, then 2,then 5. And then I have 1 big ass zit now. 😭It's nothing much but then it will surely confirm chop spread like hell
Feeling so sad cos I've tried almost every single acne pill there is on the market, even tried the harshest And supposedly best acne pill in the market - Roaccutane. It was so expensive. Like 3-4$ per pill if I think. Imagine I have to take it for 6 months. And I even took the course TWICE cos my acne was that bad. :( and it resulted in me having dry lips for like.... maybe the rest of my life ? I took it when I was 16 and now it's still constantly dry..
My mum brought me to the most expensive dermstologist and I took so many pills and applied so many creams. Ok, I'm q stupid Cos I only started taking care of my skin properly when I was 19.. but up till now , it's horrible
My first trip to Perth, my skin broke up so terribly cos of the weather.. my skin was horrible until I stopped taking selfies. Even up to now, I hate taking selfies. Only recently, I started to gain the confidence of taking selfies cos my skin was clear, just some scars.
I even took pills when I was in Perth last time. I took clindoxyl 50mg per day from September 2014 to January 2015 cos my facialist told me to stop taking pills.
The facial I went to is awesome. I had my doubts. But she really knew her thing and she really didn make me feel ugly even when she's the only person I trust to look at my skin closeup and under super bright lights. She helped me do face waxing and at first, I really regret it cos there was an ugly scar and my face broke out badly.but now I'm happy cos I tor it helped my skin so much better
My skin condition in Perth last time was horrible and I didn even use bbcream last time ? It was red and big and there were like 10 big zits on my face at one time or maybe more. And many tiny ones. It was horrible. The first thing my friends commented on when they saw me after the holidays was that my face improved so much. And now.. what if it goes back to the same old shit again ?
I don't want to take pills, tho it's the best way. I've been considering taking zinc supplments but that is going to screw up my body big time... sigh. People say "oh it's just acne " but u don't know how much I suffered since I was like 12.. how many times I cried to my mum, there was once, when I was 15, my face was so bad, I looked at the car reflection of myself and I cried to my mum. I cried at home, I cried myself to sleep, I cried while washing my face.
This have been going on for my whole adolescent age, since 12 till like 19.. I really hate ance..it's the bane of my existence. But now, it's so much better cos I have chew.. but still, it affects me so much. Every time I'm happy and confident, awhile later, my acne starts popping up AGAIN and the cycle of taking pills, crying, improving and getting lots of compliments from my friends, start feeling confident, acne pops up like crazy, repeat. This is the summary of my entire life.
If there's one person I hate to the core, it was be HIM. It's pretty obvious who cos he is that asshole who has completely changed my friend. Seriously I'm not even connected to u at all but you're really the person I hate the most in the entire world. 👿 freak.
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